For me Christmas means something different this year. I was getting caught up in the Christmas whirlwind of presents, cooking and tree decorating; feeling like I was getting into the perfect holiday spirit. Then I received the news of my uncle. I reflected on what I'd been preparing for, and all of a sudden the gifts I'd been intending to give didn't mean very much anymore. It's funny how even the most exquisite and thoughtful gifts are really just things. Material things that have no lasting effect on anything eternal.
When I found out my uncle had decided to leave us, I partially blamed myself. One of my first thoughts was, "What could I have done differently?" This is the second person I have known that has been lost to suicide, both brought such joy to my life and impacted me in ways I doubt any one else ever could have. Both were so happy at one time, inspiring me to be my best self. So how did it come to this? How could their laughter and optimistic attitudes be turned to depression and self degradation? Although I realize it was not my fault, and it is unlikely that anything I could have done would have prevented the outcome, I have to believe that maybe I can make a difference in someone else. I started thinking of what I could give that would matter the most. So every Christmas from now I want to make it about giving. Giving my time, service and whatever else is needed to bring up another. You never know when someone needs some lifting up. So every Christmas from now on, I challenge all of you to forget about Christmas "things" and think like the Grinch and Cindy Lou Who...
"What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store.
What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more."
I'm so grateful for Christ and His sacrifice. I'm so grateful for my family and friends. I hope my uncle knows how much I love him. How I hope to always be his "princess", and how much joy he has brought into my life.
Remember that Christmas means a little bit more. Remember to reach out and touch other people's lives. Remember to count your blessings and constantly show gratitude.
In loving memory of:
Robert C. Burnett
2/6/1962-12/20/2010
www.FeelingBlue.org
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